Grief has lingered with me because without it, its absence shuts down almost every other emotion. It defines how I interact with family and ...

 I used to think I was a strong person. In many instances, I was. Now, not so much. It's been well over 2000 days since my beloved Warre...

I've learned - that laughter is that absolutely insatiable, most satisfying emotion, feeling, act of body-shaking, chortling, roaring, g...

Enclosed in the space of my SUV, my mind works overtime when I'm driving. It flits from thought to thought very quickly.  Driving recent...

From the time of the news of the diagnosis, there was never a moment when we thought he wouldn't beat this thing to a pulp. The choice o...

In the beginning.......  When my brother Ed heard that I was dating Warren and really liked him, his reaction had me convulsed with laughter...

All winter long, inside my house, I've felt cold. I had the thermostat at what I thought was a reasonable temperature but I always felt ...

I listen to the current music used for a commercial (the theme from CHEERS) and I practically choke on tears because it brings me back to a ...

We made it to the end of the line that was created for us as a couple. But I still feel that the line should have been much, much longer bec...

Those words of endearment: Hon, Luv, Sweetie, Sweetheart, Darling. When you met the love of your life, how long before you were able to ease...

 So, I am now into the fifth year of my incredible loss and I'm realizing that I have pushed my immense sorrow deep down into a pocket o...

 It's been four years since my life was ripped apart, my heart was smashed into millions of pieces, my sons lost their best friend, and ...

I'm beginning 2021 in a little better health than the last two months of 2020. I contracted Valley Fever with bilateral pneumonia and it...

 Honey, I used to have red hair. I don't have it anymore. If you were still here, I'd still be a redhead. I no longer have my nails ...

 I look in my mirror now and I see my mom's face. Sometimes I just stare intently and say to that image staring back at me, "Hello,...

 The pandemic has done a horrible number on all of us. I, like so many, have not been near another human being for the most part. For about ...

I've been living with heartache since my beloved Warren died over three years ago. I've learned to keep it from overwhelming me most...

Great sadness made me think of strange and scary thoughts. There were some nights I'd slip into bed and think, "I might not survive...

I'm starting the fourth year without my beloved Warren. The past three years have been a crescendo of unmitigated sadness and physical a...

I've been having some particularly bad days lately during this self-imposed isolation period we're all going through. Even though I...

Music was always a big part of our lives. For me it began with piano lessons as a kid, then glee club in junior high. And I babysat to save ...

Laughter was a huge part of our relationship. And it all started on our very first date. We went out to dinner and a show in Boston. At that...

Ha, ha. You thought I was done with this thread. So did I. But my mind swirls with words forming thoughts that always go back to him. After ...

I have written sixty-four previous blog posts since August 31, 2016 about my beloved Warren, our journey through one of  the most wretched e...

I am the way I am because you loved me. I am the way I am because you believed in me. I am the way I am because you saw in me what I cou...

When we took our two dogs for their walks each day, one liked to just saunter so I was the one who held her leash. The other liked to race a...

It's been over two years and so I have flashes of guilt. I sometimes think that there are those who think  I should be showing more sign...

As I travel through my days, usually at home (it's way too hot to be out and about), surrounded by photos of my beloved Warren, my eyes ...

This morning I gathered more of Warren's clothes, checked the pockets and then made my fourth trip to a donation center to drop them off...

As the days in June go by, one by one, my anxiety level is rising. I haven't yet learned how to calm my heart. I still wish so many thin...

When a tragedy hits, the mind tries to protect the heart. There wasn't one moment during the time my beloved Warren was ill that we ever...

I didn't think it would be so excruciatingly difficult.  It has taken me almost two years to get up the courage and emotional strength t...

From the moment I came home from our first date, I knew that I was in love with Warren. I felt it emotionally and physically. My whole being...

I have a cousin who is an extraordinary cook and writes a wonderfully funny blog which always includes a fabulous recipe. I eagerly read her...

I get posts on my Facebook page from a website called My Jewish Learning. The latest one that caught my attention was about Sheloshim, the t...

The Kaddish prayer is a puzzlement for me. I say it because of tradition, nothing more.  It could be interpreted as a prayer praising G-d de...

The words 'friend' and 'acquaintance' are really not interchangeable. I am casually familiar with a lot of people who are wi...

I've mentioned before that I truly miss my beloved Warren's embrace. He took me inside his arms and held me tight. The feel of his a...

We got the diagnosis on May 20, 2016, the day our wonderful life together did a 180 degree flip. My blog posts became sporadic after that, w...